it felt starnge to see the man who nobody ever talked about anymore and that man was my daddy. even though i never got to know him properly i knew anything i wanted to know. i was gobsmacked at first when i got to see my dad because it had been so long since the last time i saw him. i never wanted to let him go. when i found out he had died i cried and cried because i was hurt because he promised to come and see us and he didnt turn up so i rang him and told him to go and die that was the worst thing i had done. only a week after he was doing extra shifts as a lorry driver to get money for a coloured baby scan for my little sister!